Right now I'm just toying with the OpenToonz/Tahoma2D plugin system which utilizes it's own internal API as well as OpenCV for plugin effects. Nothing big or world changing, just wanted to toy with things. If I make anything interesting, I'll make an update. I put it here.

I've wasted too much time on bullshit, from here on out, animation is my #1 concern outside of personal health.

I'm stalked and intimidated. I can hardly think for myself at times because I have been mentally beaten so much I'll do whatever it takes to survive. FBI and intel and other world wide agencies are working around the clock to fully destroy me as much as they can. They're not going to win, the fact I'm typing this out is proof I'm starting to get stronger.

I swear I'm being stalked by some unknown enemy, but I need to stop using display managers because they're fucking with my head. And every time I think of saying something, I get some vague threat about it. Well fuck that, not dealing with this bullshit anymore like I have for the past few days.

It's just too long of a story to go into the verbose details, so I'll give you the tl;dr. I spend a WEEK of misery and self loathing because of my mental health issues to put it mildly. I wanted to jump back into writing because why not, nothing big, but I was obsessed to the point of almost a mental breakdown of finding the perfect environment. And trust me, combined with manic-depressive episodes + OCDish tendencies, it was a recipe for disaster. But I don't care about any of that anymore. I've found emacs to be very useful and I have no stake in the editor war. Primarily fountain mode markdown, it was the only converter to PDF that actually imported right into fade in which I tested multiple other programs that all failed. The PDF exported from fountain mode was rendered properly such as a scene element was classified as a scene by fade in, characters were characters, and so on. Rest of them, were being imported all as action elements. So in a nutshell, I went through hell and back because of personal issues and I feel much better. And I'm talking waking up at 4-5 AM and investing into this delusional obsession for the entire day. 7 days straight. And I really thought I could make the next big thing. Like linus torvalds big and I would be seen as a god like figure. This is what manic obsessions do to me, this is why life is a very difficult thing for me.

Why all this hell? Because I have a strong tendency to get really obsessed with things and any roadblock both real or imagined I'll fight tooth and nail to avoid. The fact I am self aware of my problems made me even more self hating because I kept falling for temptation for a whole week straight.

I'm much better now, I think (and hopefully truly do now) got this out of my system and I can focus on other artistic endeavors.